I've lost 5 pounds since Saturday. I haven't been sleeping, barely eating. I can't focus very well, or pay much attention. I don't concentrate on anything and I can't think of anything else except this maybe-relationship of mine.

J has been in contact with me and wants to talk on Sunday. By fluke I spoke with his mother last night and she told me that she asked him point blank if he wanted to make this relationship of ours work. He said yes.

I still don't fully know what's going on. I'm very sad and frustrated as well.

In other news:

-- I handed in my two weeks notice yesterday and Wednesday June 8th is my last day here at this workplace. I'm really excited about that. I got a new job working for an insurance broker somewhere closer to home. It will shed 45 minutes a day off my travelling time. It includes benefits, a higher salary, 5 sick days a year, 3 weeks vacation to start off with, and a more professional office environment. (many other golden attributes but none that I can remember off the top of my head right now)

I guess that's all. I just am really weak. I haven't slept a wink since I woke up at 5:30 Thursday morning. I didn't sleep at all last night due to my telephone conversation with J's mother. I'm a wreck and cannot wait for this thing to be resolved. I want to get back together, because I never wanted to break up in the first place. I just have to learn patience and wait for him to contact me.